February 2009
6 posts
whoa. i've been trying to cry lately. this did it. →
The Fray _ Heartless Cover
January 2009
23 posts
you know the feeling you get when leaving the house, for an extended period of time- and you can’t help but feel a small empty hole inside you that keeps tugging and screaming “you forgot something”? Eventually it goes away once you:
A) roll your eyes upward with a throwback of your head and let out “fuck” because you remember what it is you forgot
or
B) unpack...
“You can think a lot of things, but nothing really makes sense until you say it...”
– Buster - during our three hour conversation contempating our realities, loves lost and those floating near by and what we’re going to do with it all when we grow up. im proud of the things he learned, although, not of the things he did to learn them. he’s determined to get there if it...
“Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to...”
– Sigmund Freud
..i used to make excuses for someone very close to me - because i believed in them so passionately. This would have been one of those excuses. It took some time for me to realize that all those justifications of poor behavior weren’t going to magically pile together one day form...
“sometimes we need to fall apart to be able to fall back together”
– me
I’m still that four year old girl who had to put her hand on the kerosene heater to see just how hot it really was.
i made a big decision today..
..im nervous.
Thing is, I don’t know which end is up right now. I risk more staying than I do leaving. And that is what puts the proverbial nail in that proverbial coffin of mine.
I’m scared because I don’t know what I’ll return to. I’m riding a roller coaster of emotions and I don’t foresee it subsiding anytime soon.
..i never woke up with that empty feeling. im satisfied, happy, surprised.
“When I met you I thought: “This girl has beauty, fiercely intense passion, and a...”
– Someone.
About me and why it never worked out. I’m glad you didn’t.
9 Hardest Times of your Life
1. Being questioned when you yourself don’t understand.
2. Pretending to be innocent of what you are guilty about.
3. Trying to forget something you know you never will.
4. Admitting you were wrong after you have been so insistent that you were right.
5. Debating with yourself.
6. Accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be.
7. Trying to understand when you just can’t.
8....
“Some days just beg to be managed by a handful of pills”
– (via beautifulordinaire)
“I know I’m going to wake up with that empty feeling tomorrow morning. Ya...”
– to a friend. in a quick frenzy of analogies, which are quickly becoming (or always have been) the way I express stuff.
Her hair lay soft & blonde, framing an oval face with ever-sleeping eyes. He remembered her smiling at him in the dark; he remembered a lot of things. The smile that pierced his heart from across the room, a soft touch to the side of his face and a genuine tone in her small voice, wordless stares and a hand that was always reaching for his. This was the unknown that feels too good to be known....
ironic
I’m sitting in Bucks - procrastinating - Listening to a girls escapades of online dating. The funny thing is - shes talking about people I know. Apparently, the south shore bar slugs aren’t meeting any Grade A’s during their drinking adventures.
I get it, she isn’t the bell of the ball, but when you’re online dating experiences are unknowingly connecting you with the...
“There’s always a moment when you start to fall out of love, whether it’s with a...”
– Douglas Adams
Ta Da
I’ve been thinking about how much time we let so carelessly fly by -each second, each minute, each hour, day, month and year. How I take for granted the time given and what small accomplishments I’ve made because of it. I know that if I die today I would not be satisfied. Even at the young age of 65, taking for granted the time passed just as I’m doing now, life would not be all...
“I will miss your lips and everything attached to them”
– Claire, Elizabethtown
December 2008
26 posts
whoa
hello Mannheim, PA..
.. i was lying sick in matts bed - but im beginning to think the new company might persuade me to do otherwise.
I not even confident that I like you all that much. Brats aren’t my thing man.
I know you get me perturbed like none other, that much I know.
New Years
I have never been a fan of the holiday. We all stopped trying to force an event on this day of the year long ago. Although, I have to say - high fiving Christian last year @ midnite - finishing off our pints - and walking out of the Portly - is surely one of my favorite NYE memories.
Question: Who is the band August Burns Red?
Answer: Apparently some hardcore band - who my best friend in PA...
Romantic Christmas Strolls
yes please.
The Ones We Love
Photographer: Michael.McCraw
The Ones We Love:
a project highlighting young and talented photographers from around the world. Each artist contributed six photographs of the person(s) who is most important to them, taken outdoors in a natural setting. The goal of the website is to portray the people who are loved, cherished, and inspirational to these artists, and also showcase the differences...
Pete Yorn - On Your Side
{mascarah}
I listen...
“As Ray Porter watches Mirabelle walk away he feels a loss. How is it possible,...”
– Shopgirl
“A woman needs to be held, even, and science has shown this, if its with someone...”
– Radio Personality - Shopgirl (movie)
Not for anything, but if someone i dont even remotely care for attempts to touch me like this - i become physically ill. Sorry, science, you are so wrong fool.
“I want to rest my head in her lap as she strokes my hair and ask her to tell me...”
– Me wishing Gran was just a little closer and more tangible than the buttons of a cell phone right now.
Going thru my old blog -I wrote that awhile ago - and somehow it never changes.
“Whatever it is, if it doesn’t make you happy, walk away, give it away to...”
– Ramtha
brandi carlile covering ray lamontagne’s “burn”
...
“Don’t be afraid. if you are going to completely make it, you have to allow...”
– Solve Sundsbo
Winter isn’t so magical when it becomes so cold you feel it in your bones. That’s what i feel right now. Sitting on my bed, refusing to move because i feel weird. In other news, it looks like African American pride day on Deal or No Deal - the contestant is black and so are all the people holding the cases - some of them even dresses in the tribal garb. i know, the things i say can be...
